8月7日2015年

现在是下午1点51分，我正在看烈王大挑战。

我常常问自己，我现在到底是以什么心态来看白日梦冒险王。在白日梦冒险王还没播出的时候，你们在Facebook里一直都有提起，也有宣传，我的心情就像你们一样，既兴奋又开心，因为隔了这么多年，我又可以看到你主持的游戏性综艺节目，而且还是与从前不同的实景节目。

但是看着看着，我却没有以往那么兴奋了。或许是因为看见新闻上谈论着白队队长的一些事情，让我对他感到反感，相对的，对白队我也没兴趣。每当我看白日梦冒险王时，我会感到少许的抗拒，原因是，我偏心，我对红队偏心，我会担心如果这一集，红队一直落后怎么办？虽然红队真的很强，有时落后了很长一段时间，也可以追回来，是上天wu di bo bi la :)

以前看他们主持节目，都是四个人一起主持，分组。所以也不会偏心，哪一方赢了，也都开心，而且节目主持风味幽默，好笑，让人感到欢乐。以前的节目有嘻哈披头四，斗争俱乐部，少年特攻队，还有很多很多。娱乐性节目，完全娱乐，他跟善为的搭配也让人非常喜欢，也感动。然后是音乐性节目，金G金曲排行榜，这里他跟Linda的搭配又是另一种风味，唱歌好听动人。还有最近我在看的冒险奇兵，与曾国城的搭配，然我不管是哪一队赢了，我都看得很欢乐。还有很多很多。。。。

可是，白日梦冒险王。。。

希望日后，会越来越好。。。

不过最好的主持，莫过于他们四个人在一起主持。。。。 :)

2点09分

8月7日2015年

这个blog放在这里生尘有一段时间了，应该再也没有人看了，所以想说写下自己心里话。有蛮多的，想写在日记本里，但是却很懒惰写，也很执着日记本上要写英文，我又不会用英文表达我心里的话，所以就写在这里好了。

现在时间是凌晨12点24分，一边上网看下节目，一边写，看会写到什么时候，因为这unify的line实在有够慢。

但是要写的时候又不知道要写什么，人生就是那么矛盾。

首先想要对Carmen Heng说一些话，就是你从外国回来了一个月，我见了你一面后，就再也没有找你了，真的很对不起。我不是不要找你，我很开心你回来了，我也很害怕我没有好好珍惜你在这里的这段时间，因为距离你回去还剩不到3个礼拜的时间 :( 我其实很想找你，可是我没办法。我没有用，如果我要约你们出来见面，我又要叫人家载，我不想。。。或许你会认为我没在太在意你了，但是我真的真的还是很在意你。。。我想在你飞回去前做点什么，让你知道，我真的还是很在意我们的友情和所有我们所经历过的点点滴滴，和对你的感激我都没忘过，谢谢你。。。希望你可以好好照顾你自己，也不要不开心，因为我很想念以前那个疯疯癫癫的你，要开开心心，平平安安，健健康康，一切顺利。。。保重！

然后接下来就是我小学到中学到现在的那些有够“老”的朋友！或许我在你们眼中，是个非常安静的人，就是那种，你们玩到很癫的时候，我在旁边一个人静静的那种扫兴的人（这是我自己一直认为的）所以你们可能会认为我不适合跟你们一起疯疯癫癫的玩，所以我们都很少一起出去了（这也是我认为的）对不起。但是我得承认一些事，就是，过了这么多年，我有这么多不同场合不同阶段的朋友，跟你们在一起，我还是会感到比较的自在。但是或许我们不会再像以前那样常常一起出去吃喝玩乐了，你们去玩应该也不会想到要叫我了，哈哈。因为我真的太麻烦了，要出门，都要麻烦人载，出了门，又在那边装安静。

只想跟你们说，我很喜欢我们过去时常在一起做这个做那个，一起经历很多喜怒哀乐，一起幸苦，一起开心。。。。我时不时都会想过去这些开心的事情。。。。但是这一切都真的只剩下过去。。。。我们的这段友谊，我猜应该可以很长久，因为，我绝对不会忘记你们 :)

对了，还有MsNg,你对我的好，像山一样高，哈哈，说不完。你对我做的所有的一切，不管是在所有人后面偷偷帮我，或者是以那种好像没有事却是在帮我和照顾和关心我的方法，我其实都知道。我不会表达，我也不知道要怎么感激你，你可能也都不喜欢那种婆婆妈妈肉麻的感激，所以我到现在我都没有任何的表示。但是真的要谢谢你。。我忽然间不知道要写什么。。你对我所做的一切，我都知道，我都记在心里，我一直都没忘记。我欠你的补习费，你请我吃饭，买电话卡给我，载我去补习，载我回家，买咳嗽药水给我，在我毕业后你向你的学生提起我，一直提到现在的Form3学生都听过我的名字，还有你发给我那封让我读了后就哭的信息，还有所有的一切，你耐心的教导，鼓励。。。才会有今天的我。。。真的真的。。。非常谢谢你。。。我没有忘了你对我做的一切。。。谢谢你。。。

其实要感激的人真的很多。。。很多很多我都没有忘记。。。一直一直都在我的心里。。。

其实我真的认为我是个非常幸运的人，在每个阶段里，我都有非常多的人帮助我，陪伴我。。。但是或许你们都认为我忘了你们对我的好，可是我真的想说，我都没忘记过。。。。谢谢你们。。。

未完待续

成绩好又怎样。。。

我想有个快乐的生活，做到自己的梦想，做个自己认为成功的人，享受生活，运动，开心，健康，平安，还有你们的陪伴，多好 :)

1点56分 

National Service 1 =)

“叮！”

打球打到一半收到了封信息，有人要跟我拿身份证号码。怎么了吗？

“嘿，子莹，你查了吗？”

在数学补习课时，同学忽然问起。

“查啥？”

“查你有没有中NS啦！”

“NS?! 出了哦？”

没有中的人...

“我很想中耶，可是没有中...”

“不懂能不能申请自愿呢？”

啧....

回到佳时根本没勇气去查。

第二天PPS meeting 时...

“莹，你查了吗？”

学弟学妹们也问起了。

“没有耶，不太敢查。”

“你们有中吗？”

Meeting完了，在Library谈天。

“没有，哈哈！”

.....

做么那样看着我？

“你中哦？” 她问我。

“我还不知道耶，还没查，不敢，哈哈！” 

“我们帮你查了。”

“Nani?! 怎样？” 啊！为啥帮我查，我还想就这样表理它 T.T

“她查时没中，接下来我查时有中。”

“那是怎样？”

“我也不确定，你自己再查多一次吧！”

“哦，怎样查？”

她就教我用电话发过去问。

“叮！”

我一个人拿起电话看。

“........”

“怎样？”

学弟好像比我还紧张 -_-

“中啦！” 我拿起电话让他看...

"Ang Jeat Yinn 950206-10-xxxx terpilih untul menyertai Program Latihan Khidmat Negara Siri 10 / 2013."


最近都在FB跟妹妹谈天。
"You kena NS?"
"Don't wanna tell you, haha."
"Why?"
......
每次妹妹问起我都没告诉她，不过她应该都知道了...

去学弟明仔的佳咯！
跟朋友们，学弟学妹们，在学弟的佳唱歌。
“你毕业后做什么？”
唱到一半，坐在我旁边的学妹问起。
“........”
我停顿了一会儿。
“其实，我有中NS耶，现在不知道会中First batch ma. 如果是的话我所有Plan都泡汤了。哈哈，原本还真不想提起的，不过既然你都问起了，就告诉你咯。”
然后，她就哭了...
对不起，这是我第二次把你弄哭了吧？


打篮球时，我对我个队员小妹妹说。
“明年，不知道可不可以来看你们比赛耶，应该也不能来教你们了，应该也带不到队了，哈哈，对不起啊...”


在班上，国文老师问。
"Siapa kena NS?"
3,4 只手默默的举起。
我还真的不例外...
"Orang KL akan kena Sarawak, Sabah mia.. Selalu macam ni mia.."


“叮！”
有信息，来自最敬爱的老师 Ms Ng.
"Hey do you want help me to teach tuition next year?"
"Ah... I want but I kena NS wor..."
Aikz....
"Oh, then nvm la.."
"Ehh teacher, I want, I don't wanna go NS.."
"Okay, then I book you a.."
"Okie =)"
.............


有一天，跟朋友在外面吃东西。
“你知道要怎样不用去吗？”
“怎样？”
“去之前扭伤脚就不用去了。”
“真的？！”
好，这可以试试。


在佳，我告诉婆婆。
“我中当兵哦！”
“Yer! 惨了咯！政府就是喜欢做这些没有用的东西！”
“是咯！”
“你哥哥两个应该中的都没有中，你中！”
“哎呀，如果不是中第一批我就不用去了啦！”

“你妈听到你中的时候就骂我们为什么给你中！叫我叫大姑姑带你去弄掉。她以为大姑姑那么厉害，要弄掉就弄掉。”
“她什么都不懂的啦...Ish...”

“莹，我带你去找那个皮肤的医生写信。”
“哦！”
到了诊疗所...
“哦，中当兵啊，要弄掉没有那么容易的啦！不过我会写信啦。” 医生说的。
“好的，谢谢啊！”


一开FB, 看见很多中第一批的人把自己中的地方资料Post上来。
可以知道了哦？
上了当兵网站，打了身份证号码。
果真是第一批.....
Sarawak, Miri...
要死。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。


叔叔从Sabah回来了。
“你中当兵啊？” 他笑着对我说。
“是咯，不想去。”
叔叔有点惊讶。
“做么不想去？很好玩的咯！”


在姑姑佳，姑姑告诉我。
“莹，老姨说哦，去。不要留下来做工。如果要钱，老姨给你。她叫你去。”
好吧，是时候做个结论了。
“好吧，既然老姨都叫我去了，我就去吧！”


已经决定了，我要去当兵了。还有20多天而已，在这20多天里，我什么抗拒都没做了。
我也其实没告诉几个人我是第一批的...

PLKN aka NS

Program Latihan Khidmat Negara @ National Service @ 当兵
kat Kem PLKN Sungai Rait, Miri, Sarawak
Kumpulan 1 Siri 10 Tahun 2013

80% and above of the people refused to join this at first, 80% in these 80% of people failed to get the permission of not joining, 90% in these 80% of people willing to go home at the 1st 2 weeks in the camp, and 90% and above of people in these 80% of people will hope to stay in the camp longer, 95% of people in these 80% of people will cry before they leave the camp.

Before you went to the NS, I'm sure 80 percent and above of you didn't wish to go and felt sad and annoying about that. But trust me, you wouldn't feel regret of going there, never and never. For me, I thought no one in the world will wish to go there but when I was chosen to attend a counselling program, I found that I was wrong. There're quite a number of people happy because they're chosen to this national service, and now, me too :) I was so so lucky, and never regret about this :)

Genting Trip 2012

Day 1

101212
111212
121212 :)

Camp Motivasi 3 2012

Day 3

Motivation Camp 22122012

Wa.... so fast leh...
As usual, I woke up when I heard AJKss' sound "起床啦！", and then washed and brushed at the sink beside the kitchen, so cold....
Kept our things and the sleeping bag, sorry I don't know how to keep the sleeping back, so asked Angeline to help me, thanks a :)
Then buat senaman together...

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8....

Star Jumps again. Ahaha I like this because this help me in grow taller :D

Bumping !
After that we dried our tent and kept it.
We took our luggage to the hall there... so fast TT
Then breakfast I think. What was the breakfast a? I've forgotten leh, can tell me ma?

After that, station game :)
Group Five, Six Sense Jia you!!
Group Five vs Group Two!
First game...

AJK Station was Kwong Yong.

We have to protect the balloon by kicking or other ways so that the balloon wont touch the ground :)

We won in this game....

Only this game...

Then the next game....

AJK Station was KP, Jervin.

What did it called a? Erm... bottle something one...
This's our group, we have our number 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6.

This's group 2, they have their number 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6 too.

Then when the KP gives a Maths question like, 6-4, the each number 2 must run in front to rebut the bottle.

This game not bad leh, like this :D

So the first question was 6-4, I was the number to, so I ran to take the bottle and wanted to throw the bottle to my group there but kena Angeline langgar so I fell down on the... ground? there.... lol... the bottle being thrown outside the hall. I jumped out of hall and took the bottle and threw it to my group there, at this moment, I heard one familiar sound "A Yinn", but I lai bu ji reply her. I ran back to my group there, and took up the bottle, muahahaa, I won XD

But at last we still lost, 8 vs 9..... TT

Then the next game....

AJK Station was Guang Huang.

One person kena 蒙眼.
Then the teammates will shout to the blocked-eyes person.
Front - Horlicks
Back - Coffee
Left - Milo
Right - Tea
Then, during the game, you will heard this "Coffee, Tea, Milo, Horlicks.... bilibala...."
The people who 蒙眼 must get the bottle on the small tree there...

But something happened.....

Kok Foo and A boo... Hahahah :D

Next game...

AJK Station was Shu Yong.

Nahhh, we have to blow the newspaper ball to and back and the last person blow the newspaper ball into the cup prepared.

Before we blow the ball, we have to 转10圈. Lol, what I did after I 转10圈 made Chai Hwai laugh, now I think back the action I did, feel so stupid and so funny hahaha..@@

Have to blow like this....

Wan Chin so bo meng, she kept blowing kept blowing.... blow until her face became so red, but still blowing, so 佩服 her... until she 晕..... sorry a...... Then she went to rest.... sorry a.... :(

We lost in this game.

Next game...

AJK Station was Hui Ying and Keat Ming.

But before the game start, we have to.... do something to make the AJK to feel happy... so we... danced Oppa Gangnam Style lo...

My first time leh, I shouted "妈妈，我终于会跳了！"

Have to carry the water balloon from starting point to the end point and then from end point to the starting point.

Punishment of the loser team....

We were the loser team :P

Next station...

AJK station was.... I forgot dy, ermm, Yong En?

You know how to play de la, I lazy to explain :P

We lost too!

Next Station...

AJK Station was Jie Min.
We lost too...
Next Station...

Erm.... sorry a... no photo... so I put this... haha...

Okay, this was the AJK Station, Wan Ling....

One of 2 teams will act as defender, another team acts as attacker.

Defender have to protect the 天鹅 (Sila rujuk gambar di atas) by not touching it.

Then the attacker must get the 天鹅 from the defender :D

The group that complete the mission at shorter time will be the winner of the game...

so... as usual, we were the loser team -.-

Finished...

Gathered at hall :)

The winner of the camp :D

Leader of the winner team, Adam Chin :)

We are always a big big family :)

Never forget our PPS spirit + Running Kia :D
We sat at the hall there.
Outside raining heavily.
They all surrounded me suddenly, and Xian Cherng told me I am the 1st senior that he knew. Both of us chatted something sad, so she bu de TT
Then Guang also said so she bu de...
Chee Wei also said so she bu de...
I asked her not to cry, but actually I was the one who is going to cry out. I so she bu de!
Wan Ling, Shu Yong, they were there also, Chai Kok Foo....
and Tao Tao....
Thanks a, all the AJK, Faci and campers, I love you all so much :')

A Mui, Tao Tao and me :)

Me, Tao Tao and Shu Yong :)

A Mui, Tao Tao, Me, Shu Yong and Photographer Teck Jia ! :D

Head of the head :)

Back home.

My last secondary school camp,

The End.

Camp Motivasi 2 2012

Day 2

Motivation Camp 21122012

Wa so happy the Sun came out as usual! We're so happy to see that! Thanks God we're still alive!

Nah, one photo can prove everything! :D

AJK woke us up at don't know what time. I seldom take out my phone from the bag and didn't bring my watch so, I lost my 时间观念... 

Then washed and brushed at the sink beside the kitchen there, because the toilet had given me a bad impression so I did not want to brush at there. 

Erm, then then, buat senaman together.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8.....

Star jumps, run 1 round around the campsite....

and the breakfast time, nasi lemak :)

After breakfast, our 1st activity of the day's started!

What did it called a.... erm... Obstacle.... obstacle walk? Sorry I 've forgotten...

Aha, before I went for the obstacle walk, A Mui asked me to be careful with her 真诚 de brown eyes!! This scene 深深的烙印在我心里了...

Gathered at the tapak there...

This is Tarik nafas.....

This is.... don't know what... Lepas nafas kan??

The first obstacle...

This is me :)

Many people injured in the 1st obstacle leh...

The second obstacle...

This is me too! 

Erm, this is so scary, the 1st time I stood on it, I couldn't move, my legs kept trembling involuntary. 

So I tried the second time at last with my tipu way... haha... so fail. 

I afraid of water laa /.\

Erm, the third obstacle..

This is me again... lol sorry a, I know I am so annoying but I will put my photos unless I don't have the photo because if I put other people's photo, feel like so weird... later you all luan luan xiang.... :)

The forth obstacle...

Group 6 and group 5 combined :)

Haha, this quite fun but so pain.... 

The fifth obstacle...

Not sure this consider a part of obstacle or not la... 

The sixth obstacle...

This is group 6...

Wa... this looked so dangerous leh...

The next seventh obstacle...

He's strong hor?

He's Sze Meng! Long time no see a :)

Next obstacle...

Nor, this hurt me lo, that's why my leg swollen, so pain leh...
Next obstacle...

This is Adwin I think...

Ahaha, this is better, because there's no water :P

Last obstacle...

We whole group have to hide in this... erm... big pipe?

and then shout the..... Tarik nafas... Lepas nafas.... :D

My group...

This is Jervin, replaced A sam :)

You're so funny la, KP !

Big family!

Marching!

Chee Wei said "Jeat Yinn you are so excited hor!"

Haha, ya la, so excited leh, I can feel the spirit of PPS xD 

I always joke to my friends that I will be the best marcher in Sarawak camp, haha, hope so la :)

Back to the campsite....

The medic, Zhe Chin applied ice to the swollen part of my leg.

The next activity's some games that prepared by those AJKs...

I asked for the permission to go, but the medic did not allow me to join the game TT

then I took out the ice and told her, I AM OKAY DY!

she bo bian so asked me to apply for 3 minutes more.

After one minute.... CAN I GO NOW?

She took out her phone, NO, CANNOT, 2 MINUTES MORE

......

So we played this game.

We have to answer the Maths question correctly as fast fast we can, or else, you will be like this...

Then the next game, no photo leh...

3 people 4 legs to protect the water from 1 point to another point, the more the water left, the group will be the winner :)

After that, lunch.....

nasi lemak again and fried rice... fried rice got sausage de leh, I almost finished all the sausages from Kok Leong's fried rice XD

After lunch, the next activity is Amazing Race!

but....before the race started, Adam and Imra and those Abang went for sembahyang...

So Vincent gor gor asked us to play one game :

Find our partner, and then sat down face to face. My partner was Wan Chin. Then one of us got a rubber band, another one got a cut of nylon. I got the nylon so I was the angel la, then Wan Chin got the rubber band so she was the devil. Then Wan Chin closed her eyes relaxing. Vincent gor gor asked them to imagine two things, 1. There're lot of durians in front of them so wangi, so delicious. 2. You joined a camp, the weather's so cold, very cold. Then he asked us to looked at partner's closed-eyes, then guess what they like, the 1st or the 2nd one.

Then AMAZING RACE!

The first race...

Shoot the newspaper ball into the cup by using a straw...

every team must shoot in 10 balls :)

AJK team.

Guang Huang so got semangat a! :)

and I finally know how to shoot with strong and high speed!

Second race...

We have to find the key and the guli in the....water? muddy water...

Sorry to my teammates, haha, I wanted to go into it but at last I didn't because you all were too pro and found the key and guli in a short time. haha, thanks a :)

and then we sang the school song along the way to the third race area, I first time sang so loud even though I've forgotten some lyrics :P...

Third race....

We have to find the Malaysia's name of these plants from their scientific name...

 In this big area....

This is my group! :)

kena few leeches bite at here...

then then....

Forth race....

1st is like this...

 then is like this....

 after that is like this...

 lastly, your face.....

Then finally became like this..... :)

Next race...

Shoot the the..... I don't know what I called by using a....... Please rujuk gambar...

My team :)

Our punishment.... cucumber.... 

luckily I don't hate it :)

Next race...

build the perangkap to catch the chicken...

This is the trap.

Punishment... coffee powder -.-

never eat like that before....

 became this chok face...

Boil the water... cook the coffee...

Like what we did in last year camp, haha... 

 AJK team... haha so enjoy hor...

 Haha Nixon and me.... :)

We are happy family ~

Then we bathed.....

Done bathing, gan gan jing jing :)

Haha, this photo so cute.... :D

She so hardworking leh....

Dinner.... Yee Mee.... My favourite again!

Yeah.... resting... the boy behind me is the background of the photo :)

Makabilibili.....

These 3 people so funny, hahaha....

Kena punish la, wahahah.... Jervin...
Then then we had night walked :)
No camera during night walk, so no photos la...
But it's awesome! I saw something that I never seen before...
erm, next time I draw for u... :)
after that, campfire~

 Boom!

 Preparing for the Campfire :)

 My very first campfire!
Campfire song :
Campfire's burning x2,
Draw nearer x2,
In the grooming x2,
Come sing and be merry :)

When you walk to the left, and you walk to the right, and you walk and you walk....

what heel what toe....

hahaa, I forgot the lyrics dy :D

Finish...

Wash toilet...

The boy's toilet really.... dirty dao.... like after the world war..... -.-

Then looked at the starry night sky, I like it :)

even though it was not as much stars as what I saw in the camp last 2 years, but I like it too. :)

Thanks A mui to accompany me to see the stars.

Then bed time....

Today I was so so so so sleepy, we more than 10 people sat in a tent there chit chatted until 4 something,

many people, I mean camper la, they all couldn't sleep, all came out and chatted and enjoyed the wind.

Maybe today's the last day ba, so they felt so reluctant like me, haha :)

Me and Chee Wei back to our tent and slept with Tao Tao :D